Where Should You Stand?

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      Where should you stand? Where should we all stand? We all get confused, admit it or not we get that often. Sometimes, no not sometimes. Most of the times we get scared even with the persons around you. You commit mistakes, rejections and failures . Something seals our lips, it covers our eyes and our ears. It makes your feet run away and hide. It's that doubt you can feel in you. It's fear.

   Everyone usually get's in to arguments, misunderstandings and worst, words that pierce one's heart. Like they say our tongue is a deadly weapon. It can and it will affect you and me someway somehow. Some are good in hiding, lying and also in times of denial, while some can't have the urge and just burst everything out. On the other hand there are those people who take it in. They make their minds and hearts suffer the burden they feel, it makes them insane, while some endure most of it by faking.

    Let's start with girls. I'm a girl. There are girls around you and me, we're everywhere. People usually say, girls are fragile. They are, even if they're a so called 'lesbian'. A girl will always be a girl no matter what. They hurt and get hurt easily. Sometimes we just act dumb, especially when you're young and in love, they say. Girls act different from boys, very. Only one out of twenty girls can truly understand how a guy really acts and how they can get along with them. So what are those type of girls everyone encounters?

     There are these girls that doesn't know why a guy dislikes her, she thinks her attitude is okay. She thinks she's right. She thinks she's herself, and that's it, why bother. They never look inside their box, it's always the box of others. Some, if you get in a fight with them it's a world war. Typical girls, that's how I would say it. While another type of girl is a cheerful, gag, outrageous kind of girl. Even if she's hurt, she'll laugh. These kind of girls are either physically fit (meaning in size) or the fatty ones ( honestly, the word is fat, and that's it). It's okay if you're that gag type but, to be honest with the 'fatty' ones, it's not. Not in a don't be fat way but guys hate it when you act in a different way. Okay, why do we tease fat people? It's because they are fat, and as time goes by they're still fat and people tease you because you don't change yourself for the better. Fan girl, another type. These girls go gaga for anything that will catch their attention. They shriek and scream, not yell. And every single day the same picture, song or whatever is seen. It's okay to be a fan but over doing it, is so over board. Easy-to-get-along girl. These are usually friends with guys, their chumps, buds. Well there's no problem with them at all their friends with both gender. There are these quiet girls that aren't really in good terms with boys, they mock her and make jokes freely. While another type of quite girl observes before acting and in some time get's along. Some girls crave for attention, they make the teacher impressed. And would debate with someone if they want to. Sort of desperate. And some of those girls have that girly-girl characteristic if you know what I mean.

    Those are just some of the girls we see/encounter in our everyday life. There are still many attitudes around there that I'll probable figure out someday. Now, it's off to the guys. Who are you?


   Guys they're typical. Some are sweet, others rough, there are also the funny but stupid and funny but wit and some are just hard headed retards if I must say and some just loves to have fun with girl picking. The sweet guys are usually shy, if you're a nice guy well you're one in a million. Because most of the guys love being rough and lazy. There are those rough guys that just loves to pick a fight. He won't last without it, even if it's just a bad talk. They are funny but stupid but not exactly stupid. Everyone is angry at him when he gets overboard but we all still love his humorous way of speaking or acting. On the other hand the funny but wit get's a lot attention from girls. And he hates it, if not, he usually doesn't mind and ignores the whole thing.The new day new girl kind of guy just loves to play on girls. Because they want to. Some guys would say you're his crush but if he's really with his real crush, not a word or two can last long.

    For me, hanging out with both genders would be fine. But honestly, girls are too typical for me. Weird, 'cause I'm a girl myself. It's just that when I hang comfortably with boys they see me as a girl flirting. While my guy friends, if I should say see's it normally. I hate girls who see's the world in a juvenile way. I know a guy that does, but I won't speak of the name. He hates a girl related to him(cousin) and the girl doesn't know why. Actually, even I can understand, though it's hard to explain orally. 

   Now back to the question. Where should we stand? Know first who you are. And don't say anything that you can't handle. I've experienced that before; saying something that I couldn't handle, but somehow I recovered. Well just stand straight and know the things society; the real society, dislikes. But never let them change the good side of you. 

    This is just an opinion on my side, it's your life. Life is full of choices not chances. Do remember.

C'est La Vie!

Misunderstood 1

     Who is Miss Nobody? Yes, you are quite aware that it is me; but read between the lines, what does it really state? A nobody means he or she is an outcast from everyone and usually forgotten and mocked by society. But in Miss Nobodys case, is there any difference? Keep on reading to find the answer to that question.

      Childhood. People say that our childhood is fun, but, everyone knows that everything has their own limitations. For me, childhood was okay; not great nor gloomy, there weren't that much excitement or blissful moments that could make you go cloud nine. And friends? Did I even have one? Literally, I have no friends that's a fact. Making friends became a joke to me, especially after sixth grade. And starting that day, trusting people became hard for me. Just having that verity that you're or I'm afraid of trusting someone and let's add that I am a shy person is equal to a timid person. Someone who may not reach realities expectations.

  Let's start from how I became a feeble person. Physically and mentally, I am somewhat useless. That's how I feel, that's how everyone before tells me; I can tell it by looking at their gestures. But what is the main cause of all of these negativity? It was back in sixth grade where all of my 'so called' friends have been lying to me all along, betraying me and the worst part leaving me alone in the pits of forlorness. Though I didn't fight back, I didn't even mock them or backstabbed them. All I did? I cried, day and night, whether I was in school or alone in the house. There was only one concern person who stayed by my side and eased my easily torn heart. I bet you now know that I'm a sensitive person. And yes, yes I'am. There is no doubt about it.

Never have I experienced to be truly loved by a friend. Not once have I felt the true meaning of friendship. At those times 'friends' it was just a word use to express closeness between to beings. Because of this I became more fragile, vulnerable and frail. I was afraid of almost everyone and somewhat tried to bury to myself that I'll never make a single acquaintance ever again. It was rather easy for a girl like me who suffered solidarity for a couple of years. And the only enjoyment I had was glancing at nature and it's components. I was also the one who adjusted just for them. Being known at school as the daughter of the owner; one of the owners to be exact, was hard.  So I just kept myself afar from everyone and tried to be friendly. Though all of those things led to suspicion. The act of being friendly to you're teachers was sip sip for them. But I just ignored it. Some persons are just so furious with me that they hide it, so when I make the slightest mistake to them their anger just goes over the roof.

From all the experiences I have endured for the past years I noticed that, I don't fully know myself. All I know is that I'm a very weak and sensitive person that can easily be stepped on by anyone who is stronger than me. And happiness, seemed to be miles away. My mouth wasn't familiar with the words smile and laugh. Laughing wasn't really my thing, I didn't actually know how to smile. Ask the people around me who usually takes pictures of me. Frowning. Now that's my thing, almost everyday before I frown. If I do smile it would only be a soft chuckle that only I can hear. And if I smile, I fake it, making it look very awkward. But I have no choice, because we are all aware that when someone smiles they are 'happy'. But, am I happy? No.

At those times, the only light for me was God. I told Him, "God, I don't know where all of this is going but you know that I surrender everything to You. It's all up to You, Lord." When I prayed for that I wasn't quite sure how all of this help me in the future, but, the strongest will I have was to trust God. So that's what I did.

This is me full of pain and despair, but never gives up.